The last day of summer is cold and blustery. It is time for winter jackets, scarves and gloves to be brought down from the shelves- always a bittersweet thing to do. It’s been a whirlwind summer around here with very few hot, hot days that used to be common and more rain than anyone ever expected. I still find myself trying to settle in to now. It’s been a little harder than i thought it would be but i am hopeful about what will come next.

This morning, i went for a walk in the cold and it was beautifully refreshing. I had some toast and jam and Morning Tea from T2 for breakfast. The little pink roses Jon bought me yesterday sit in the vase on the table, making me unbelievably happy.

Maybe i am settling in better than i give myself credit for. Maybe i am better than i give myself credit for. Maybe i am that confident and beautiful and intelligent and creative and sensitive woman that i oftentimes have trouble believing that i am.

Harsh words were uttered back and forth last night until sleep rescued us. In the dark of the night, it all seemed frightening. Tonight, a chance to make things right again.

I’ve spent the whole of my Sunday lying down and feeling so sick because of my cramps. Thank goodness it was a Sunday and Jon was by my side the whole time rubbing my back and telling that it was all going to be ok, which it was after a blackout and mind-numbing pain. My friends Cheryl, Ursula and my pastor, Fini, came and prayed over me, which was the best feeling in the world. The pain just lifted after that. I can’t believe i had my pastor in the house and everything was a mess around me but oh well. I love that i belong to a church where the leaders care enough about you to come over to your place and make sure everything is ok.

A happy day picture to remind me that i will feel better tomorrow.

I’ve found the best cupcakes in the world and they’re just a 10 minute walk away from me. We got the vanilla cupcake with chocolate frosting and the red velvet cupcake from We Take The Cake in Queens Park and oh my goodness! They’re SO good! The cupcake itself is light and flavourful but the frosting is amazing, if a little bit on the sweet side. It was such a nice treat for a very autumnal Saturday afternoon and i can’t wait to go back to try another flavour. It’s actually a cupcake cafe so i might try eating in the next time with a cappuccino to keep me warm. Sounds like just the right activity when wintertime is upon us (With Jonathan singing “It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas” in the kitchen right now, maybe winter will be here sooner than we think!).

A little bit of autumn in the trees surrounding me and with that, it’s another time of transition. I would really love to be working right now- not only to contribute financially to my household but also for personal fulfillment. I know it’s not easy to get a job without much experience but i’m certain that something will come up soon. Meanwhile, i get to enjoy the last days of summer doing what i love- breakfast after a walk, hanging up the washing, reading voraciously, writing, exploring and dreaming about the days to come.

To my Valentine,

I am so glad i waited for the right one to come along. You treat me like a princess- massages at night, washing up after dinner, playing the guitar for me, encouraging and supporting me in everything, writing me love notes every morning, buying me flowers and Real Simple, staying home from work to take care of me when i’m sick, forgiving me so quickly when i’ve been nasty and loving me like i’ve never been loved before. I thank God every day for you and i will love you for all my life, and heaven too.

Love,
Gen