
I was sick on Monday- the sickest i’ve been in a while. Food could not be kept down and Jon came home from work to drive me to the doctor, who said it was probably a virus. I had an injection, threw up two more times and then proceeded to sleep away most of the day, only having a sip of Gatorade or ginger beer now and then to sustain me. Today, i still feel weak and am trying to muster up the energy to shower and then do some grocery shopping.
Jon was a sweetheart the last two days, putting aside his deadlines at work to care for me and attend to my every need. He let me lie on him for hours on end, held my hair back as i threw up, fed me toast when the smell of food didn’t actually make me heave, bought me some organic bananas, got up in the middle of the night to get me a drink and give me my medicine and never once told me to not come too near to him in case he fell sick as well.
Unfortunately, this reminds me of the sort of carer i am when Jon gets sick. I usually tell him that we cannot hold hands or kiss since God forbid, i get sick as well and then the whole world would crumble. I also tend to start on my “come on now, just because you’re sick doesn’t mean you have to stay in bed the whole day and feel sorry for yourself” attitude, which of course, when you yourself are sick, realise it’s the last thing you want to hear.
In the last two days, my husband has shown me what it means to care and really love. Somedays, i chastise him for not buying me flowers more often or doing the laundry or cleaning the house. But i’ve come to realise that we love differently. And that’s really ok.
In other news, we are going into winter. Most mornings, i wear my gloves when i go for my walk in the park. Also, a cup of hot chocolate has never tasted so good. Jackets, coats and scarves are strewn everywhere. And i got a new black hat! Really, winter doesn’t seem like the end of the world anymore.
In other, other news, we watched “Ghosts of Girlfriends past” last week. It was a horrible movie. DO NOT watch it, even if you love Matthew like i do. That’s all.